Hughes quoted Pascal last night: "If you are searching for God, you have already found him."
I thought it would be truer to say: "If you are searching for God, he has already found you." For you would not be searching for him if he had not first drawn you to himself.
So Lonergan's spiritual direction story of the young man who went to his director complaining that he did not love God. You ought to, said the director. I want to, said the young man. Then you do, said the director.
Even the desire comes from God. Operative actual grace. God has first loved us. The Lion is God.